This definitely was not the first post of the new year that I had envisioned in my head, but yet here we are.
I wasn’t going to post anything, but since I couldn’t be there in person for his final moments, this is the only way I know to celebrate his precious life from afar. Plus, I know so many of you loved my Jax just as much as I did. Ya’ll can’t tell me my baby wasn’t famous! ❤️and this post is probably going to be all over the place, so just bear with me
The Last 24 Hours
For the past 24hrs I have been living an absolute nightmare. I always knew this day would come, but never in a million years did I expect it to happen like this….Justin and I being clear on the other side of the world in Singapore. So let me start with this. For those of you who are not pet owners and never have been, I truly feel sorry that you will never experience the unconditional love and support of a pet, particularly a dog. But also in this very moment, I am envious of the fact that you will never experience the severe pain I am right now.
Last night while at dinner, we received a call from the boarding kennel saying that Jax wasn’t doing too well. He wasn’t eating or drinking and he would get up….actually he couldn’t stand up on his own. I told them to immediately take him to the ER and I called ahead and gave them all the information so they know to expect him. The next call was to my mother-in-law. Just in case things were bad, I wanted a familiar face and voice there with him. At first sight, the doctors knew something wasn’t right and that he was really sick. They did bloodwork and his suspicions were confirmed. Jax was in chronic kidney failure. He explained our options, which really weren’t any, and the day I’ve been dreading for the last 15 years was finally here and I couldn’t even be there to hold him one last time. But thanks to technology, Justin and I were able to FaceTime Jax and tell him how much we loved him. He heard our voices and started moving his head around a bit more. He knew we were there with him.
Jax was 15 and had lived the absolute best life of any dog I know! The love Jax has given me over the years, I can’t even begin to describe. Hell, if I’m being honest, Jax was better to me than most of the humans in my life. He was there when no one else was. Justin and I watched Jax take his last breath and I’m still in complete shock. I told Justin I knew something was going to happen when we dropped both dogs off before we left…I just felt it in my gut.
But there are not enough thank yous in the world to say to my Mother-in-Law for dropping everything to go be by Jax’s side since we could not. And to The Pet Station Country Club for not leaving her side, and the doctors at Blue Pearl Veterinary for always making our babies comfortable and providing the best care. We appreciate you all more than you will ever know!
Jax, you taught me so much. People who know me today, you know that I am one of the biggest dog lovers you will ever meet. I always want to play with them, give them all the hugs and kisses, and rescue every dog in trouble that I come across. That is all thanks to Jax. Before he came along, I was absolutely terrified of all animals, especially dogs, no matter how big or small they were. But for some reason, in my junior year of college, I literally woke up one morning and decided I was going to get a dog. I still to this day, 15 years later, have no earthly idea why, but I sure am glad I did. If I hadn’t, I would have never found my Jax, and would have never discovered the love for dogs that I have today. Jax, we all love you and miss you and will see you soon sweet boy! Patron loves you too buddy, and says thanks for being such an awesome big brother! 🐶💔
xoxo,
